I want to write. A story. A novel. A book. Something. But then we have the problem - everytime I want to write something I always want it to end up as something big. - a book.
When I was younger I really, really enjoyed writing, But now - I only pressure myself. It's really frustrating and it makes me sad and annoyed. 
I created two characters like, a month ago, but I still haven't start writing. I want it to be perfect, that's the problem. 
It seems like I can't write anything without feeling like, it's just something I do for fun, or because I like writing. 
For now on, I'm going to roleplay with some random persons. And hopefully, that'll go well. If not - dammit.

I just watched the movie "Moonchild"
Usually, I never see movies. But I wanted to see this one because GACKT was in it!
The movie was so great! I love it!
But, it was also sad. 

Hi, my body hates me, I think. It doesn't want me to go to school, but I want to go. My body gives me anxiety (I don't want it to feel unreal) and I hate it. Just stop it, please. 
I haven't been in school since wednesday. And I'm not feeling well today either, but i SWEAR, PROMISE, that I'll tomorrow!
I have a little anxiety because of all the schoolwork that I'm after with. Oh... and most of the time when I try to study, I can't focus, so I do something else instead. It's really annoying.

Right now my head hurts and it feels like I have a fever. (But I've been feeling warm for a few days now...)

What am I going to do today, then? 
Study.
I really, seriously need to get all the homework done!!
And I need to finish reading Gone too! But the book kind of sucks. But I need to give it a chance.

I want to go to school. Why won't you let me, body!

I need to get back to reality ffs. Tomorrow. Yes, tomorrow. I'm ready then, and it's going to be great.
I need to be with someone, a friend, to get a chance from being in my room all the time.
TODAY IS ALSO GONNA BE A GREAT DAY, EVEN THOUGH I'M SICK.
I'M GOING TO MAKE IT GREAT. YES!

I think that if I want to feel better, I need to start work out. Oh my god, haha! But I think that I'm going to give it a chance! I've been working out to and from, but then stopped with it. I can start with something simple, for example: Go for a walk. I already do that everyday - when I go to school, which takes a total of circus 1 hour.
I want to buy a... how do you say... a... walking/runningband? Haha. 
We already have a bike and a workout machine, but I want to be able to run/walk if it's raining outside for example, or if it's really windy and cold and so on.
Or maybe I should start going to the gym?
I know that my big sister was having plans on going there, but our 'father' think that it won't go well if we go there together, that it wouldn't be any serious training. Hmm.
But whatever. First of all I'm going to get through this day. I have a lot of study to do, so I better focus on that now!

Oh... I think this is the longest blog entry that I've ever written on this blog...

I'm drowning my sorrows in a powerking.
I finished Final Fantasy Dirge of Cerberus today.
Oh my god... I cried at the end.
The whole game was just, amazing. Already from the start I fell in love with the main character - Vincent Valentine. It hurts in me to know that the game is over.
In the end, it said "THE END" and his necklace was there.
Goddamnit.
I need to re-play it someday...
I just... I love the game... And the story, everything is just perfect!
I HAVE to buy the necklace he has! I found it on ebay.
Too bad I'm not allowed to buy things online. But I've found a solution.

Vincent Valentine,
I love you.

I make bad decision, and I think know that I'm going to regret it later.
But it makes me happy for now so I'm going to enjoy it as long as I can.
I'm glad that I get a new chance and all that. We'll see how long it's gonna last.

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! 
My life ended yesterday.
I read on Dead By April's facebook that they kicked the singer - Jimmie Strimell due to personal 'problems'. He, or well, DBA, were the band that made me start to listen to screamo! So it feels really sad that he's not in the band anymore, even though I didn't listen to them in the end...

I'll be writing this in swedish, because this is just something that I'm writing to see what I know about deserts.

Keywords: Öken. Albedovärde. 4 öknar. Ökenspridning. Erosion.

Jorden består av 30% öken. Vad som bestämmer vad som är öken är att om nederbörden är mindre än 250mm/år så är det öken. Vidare kan man säga att det är öken om avdunstningen är större än nederbörden och beräknas mindre än 250mm/år.
Det är inte bara öken där det är sand och varmt, utan det kan även vara där det är snö och kallt.
Att öken är varmt på dagen men iskallt på natten beror på vegetationens albedovärde, dvs områdets förmåga att binda värme.

Ca 13% av jordens befolkning bor i öken.

Det finns 4 sorters ökar:
Högtrycksöken.
Regnskugge öken.
Kontinentalöken. 
Torra varma havsströmmar öken.

Högtrycksöken: Vid ekvatorn är det varmt. Värmen stiger snabbt vilket gör att den kyls av snabbt och medför regn. Det som blir kvar är en torr vind som vänder vid vändkretsarna. Därför bildas det öken eftersom vinden är torr.

Regnskugge öken: Vattnet ute till havs värms upp. Luften är fuktig och blåser in mot kusten. Där träffar molnen på en bergskedja och för att passera den måste molnen stiga. När dem stiger så blir det kallare och då regnar det. När vinden passerar toppen så finns inget regn kvar - endast en torr var eller kall vind.

Kontinentalöken: Varm fuktig luft når kusten. Den värms antingen upp eller kyls av vilket gör att det börjar regna. Det som blir kvar till de inre delarna av kontinenten Asien är en varm torr vind.

Torra varma havsströmmar öken: Ute till havs vid ekvatorn går uppvärmningen fort där det bildas snabba fuktiga vindar som bildar moln. Strömmen i havet som bildas förs sydöst där det möter kallare vatten och kallare luft, vilket gör att det börjar regna ute till havs. Vinden som kommer in till kusten är torr, dvs det blir inget regn. 

Öken sprider sig - ökenspridning, och det kan ske på två sätt.
Av naturen, naturlig spridning - erosion.
Och av människan.
Med erosion menas det att naturen nöter på sig själv. T.ex att ett det finns ett fint litet berg som smulas sönder med tiden. Sol, vind, snö, kyla, regn. Bergart som smulas sönder blir slutligen till öken.

I've been studying the whole ferien...
And I'm studying right now too. Or well, not right now, because I'm writing this, but yeah.
I'm studying deutsch - german, and I'm not übergood at it, but then I came up with the idea to become a member on the german website for stallet.se - Meinpferdchen.de. There I asked a random person to translate the text I'm writing. In that way, I'll be able to see what I do wrong with the grammar and the words und so weiter! But it feels a little "Uhh... mytextsucks" at the same time, like, if that person who speaks the language is going to... yeah, read what I've written, hahaha! 

It was a while since I last wrote something here. Don't know why, I thought that I would update more often, but yeah. 
I just sync'ed a few songs to my phone. For example, Royz, Kuroshitsuji and right now I'm listening to Redemption, by GACKT. Oh god. I can't take this anymore, the song is so good and he's so damn hot.
GAHHH BUT WHAT THE FUCK WHAT HAPPENED NOW OMG NOOOOO
The song isn't full lenght. Oh nooooooo!!!! 
I need to re-download it and check if it's because the memory on my phone or the lenght of the song. 
Wahhhh.