I feel kind of dizzy. Oh, so annoying.
My sister hasn't contacted me yet. I wonder when they'll pick me up.
Or else am I going to be in my room the rest of the evening, because I don't want to faint and so on...
I hate when it feels like this. I try to tell myself that everything is normal and that I'm not dizzy, but it still feels kind of shaky... I hope it gets better, though.
Maybe because I'm nervous because of the meeting with the guy that I don't know?
Breathe.

Okay, changed plans once again, back to the 1st plan.
It seems like I'm going to meet a guy called Mikael. He's 20 years, and apparently he smells like poop. And he's serious. It sounds like if he doesn't have any humour.
Soooo... I don't know, haha!
But I do think that it will fail, because I'm very... quiet when I meet new people. But when I get to know them and so on, I'm really weird around them, laughing and talking!
I like to be alone. Hm.
Well, I'll be making an update on this later.

Well well, fuck my life!
Changed plans; I'm going to spend new year all alone.

Hellooooo!
I'm back on da track now.
Just wanted to make an update to let you know that.

Hello! I'm just going to make an update to say that I won't be doing anything on my blog for a few days.

Some people are just soooo funny, even though they're not serious. 
And some people are just soooo annoying, even though they're breathing.

I finished watching Kuroshitsuji season 1. OH MY GOD :(((((( Ciel </3
I don't understand? - It seems that so many adore Alois. But let him die, CIEL and SEBASTIAN IS THE SHIT! I love them.

We ate dinner, me, my sister and her boyfriend.
My sister said that she had found me a boyfriend, and when that person called her, she said "You should come over. Your date is here!"
My heart started to beat faster, and when the person rang on the doorbell, I started to feel sick. I lost the appetite. And then - the person walked in. His name is Timo, or Tiimu. (I prefer to call him Tiimu, or just Tim.)
He is 18+, and I'm a few years younger.
He is not fat, but he is not skinny either. He has muscles, though.
My sister introduced us to each other, but we didn't say anything, and while he was here I just played with my phone.
I don't want him as my boyfriend.
Are we going to go on a date or what? It sounded like it when my sister talked, uh.
I searched for him on Facebook, and there I found a few pictures, on him and his girlfriend. I found a pic where there was a text and so on, saying that they had been together for a year.
But when I checked his relationshipsstatus, it said that he was single. And so it did on his - in that case - ex's Facebook-page.
Okay.
So, what? Am I supposed to be a replacement? 
I don't want to meet him again. If I ever do - I promise that I'm going to flush like an idiot, because I.. hm.. OK, I don't know what I were going to write.
But I don't think that there's going to be something between us, ever.
And I swear that he thinks that I was ugly.
But that's fine, I don't want him either way.

I've started to watch Black Butler aka Kuroshitsuji. I really like it so far! (ep.03).
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My big sister walked in to my room and told me to check out the lightchains in her room. They are put behind the bed, which creates a very cozy feeling! Lovely!
Her boyfriend is here too. All suddenly he said "So, when are you going to get a boyfriend, huh?" to me. Apparently, I'm going to go with him and my sister and one of their friends, in their car, the 31st. He was like, "We can check for someone in the town!"
And I was just like "........."
I've been single my whole life. (Okay, 2 "relationships" with people over the internet - in a case where they have seen it as a relationship and I just had contact with them to kill some time. = Not a relationship, in my opinion.)
I don't want to be in a relationship. I'm fine on my own. I don't want to be dependent on anyone.

I hadn't used my tablet for a while, so I decided to draw something. I wanted to add color to it, but it failed everytime I tried, so yeah.

I'm thinking about starting to write something, (oh my god!) I haven't write in a long time. The latest thing I wrote was the Novel, and that one isn't even finished yet.